ATTENTION: SHUTING DOWN!

these are my overall thoughts and opinions!:

• so this is how it's going to be..i basically am giving great thought and consideration to those who have helped me out during life not only do i truly admire you..but i tip my hat off to you..i know at times i could be stubborn but thanx for just sticking through me regardless of everything.. * love you*

• my greatest lesson during high school..was to not give a shit about what people think..and to keep my head up! yes there's always going to be doubters..but fuck that's life right?..so my best advice for those of you who have a hard time excepting new things..i say..get over it..and just brush those people off because there just another prick!

• life is a never ending roller coaster ..you got to hold on to it and enjoy every bump that goes along with it. enjoy it while it lasts..and . .be more optimistic because, if you  just see the negetive..hunny, your goin' to be going nowhere!  rejoice upon it and giggle..smile! have fun  laugh until your stomach hurts..and to the point where your going to cry..because those moments in your life..is what you remember.. *kodak-moments* and those times..you will not forget

• my new years resolution from last year.. i guess in some way i did achieve it..half and half! lol honestly, i highly believe that 75% of the people who actually make one..go through with it..so all i'm saying is that i ain't perfect (far from it). i tried but then again ..we forget! maybe in one year..hopefully i'll reach my goal ..yikes! in 1 year i'm going to be a junior. =) wow does time pass by fast

• MY LAST AND FINAL PART THAT I'M GOING TO WRITE WOULD BE FOR MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY ! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! AND I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I LOVE YOU!

-VANESSA-

okay so now i'm officially a sophmore..things have changed..and so have people..i think i'm better now compared to the first week of skewl..i'm accepting change and i think that's a good thing..skewl's ight i wouldn't say that it is the best..but it's ight..everything seems to be going with the flow nothing really that interesting..i'm juggling 3 honor classes..sewing and 2nd year of spanish.. i have to work real hard in order for me to keep up good grades.. it's funny..the saying is true..when love isn't enough..let go and move on..and i am..alot of things have been running through my mind..some good some bad..but you know what no one is perfect..and i hope i can learn from my mistakes.. i've learned not to rush into things and be more cautious..think before acting..i'm still working on it..but hopefully i'll achieve my goal..i miss a track =(..i love you guys.. i can't wait..i got 2 months and then vacation..i might be taking intercession p.e..again becuz they didn't give it to me this year for my schedule..it's either i'm getting it for my sophmore year 2nd semester..or i'm getting p.e i think junior year?..i'm not really sure.. i need to talk to my counselor about that..okay well love life..don't got one..and i'm fine with that..friends are my loves..and the more you have the more you feel loved right?..well i have to go and do my dame project for this class english and i'm busy typin on this because i have nothing better to do.lol yes i have no life...okay well i have to go..bye bye and i updated my xangers and i hope some of u take the time to read it..

<3 vanessa

-+ my lord..this freshie year passed by so fast...it went by *snaps fingers* just like that..good and bad memories..but mostly new ones..new friends =)..good friends..teachers we're dope..my favs were = mr.arellano and mr.womack! both of them we're the shit..ima miss havn' lil gina as my running partner and stacy also!..omg ima b a sophmore =) chyeah! ..i can't wait..some seniors ima miss ..they we're pretty nice.. i'm not gna c a track for 4 months..so i hope they have fun durn' vaca..and they betta' visit hehe..i think freshman year overall was alryte..it was basically a learning experiance at least for me.. you just look back to everything you've done..and just learned from it..afterall that's what life is about to learn and live! and i'm living it baby =D.

- enough typing now time for photos- whoa!~

<- luigi and the other afro dude!

<- oh shit a celeb! hehe

 ma me n mz.dine

 locker room: me gina n stacy!

 me n natalie hehe

 me n josh + pretty flower

whoa so close..me n josh part 2

and that's all the pictures for now..but hopefully there would be more

<3 always vanessa

incase you guys don't know what a vanessa is heres the definition:

vanessa (vuh-nez-uh) (noun) a nerd in disguise

due to the fact that they won for the vma's on best kiss =) so cute..i've decided to put one of my favorite parts from the movie "the notebook"

Young Noah: It's not about following your heart and it's not about keeping your promises. It's about security.
Young Allie: What's that supposed to mean?
Young Noah: [yelling] Money. He?s got a lot of money!
Young Allie: You smug bastard. I hate you for saying that.
Young Noah: You're bored Allie. You're bored and you know it. You wouldn't be here if you weren't.
Young Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch.
Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I though that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Young Allie: It's not that simple.
Young Noah: What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?
Young Allie: I have to go now.

*man this scene makes me cry each time..*

individuality..pain..suffereing..fear..exhaustion..doubt..happiness..lust..anger..love..being yourself..losing your temper..doubting youself..denial..confession..secrets unfolded..misery..death...mystery..suspense..uniqueness..hatred..i love myself ..i hate myself..never knowing..never being   answered..ignored..heard.never good enough to be enough..perfectionist..beauty..normal..dorky..memories. reminiscing..just being on your own..outcast.. standing out..thinking out of the box..time's wasting..life is moving on..and all your doing is just feeling trapped.

okay i know that might not mean anything to any of you..but iono that was just a bunch of emotions i felt right now....this blog has no point to it..but oh well..don't like it tough..

-vanessa